bad taste?

Am I just a poor judge of character or what? Maybe I just have too much of a pollyanna mentality when it comes to men. They promise the moon and I plan what color I'm going to paint the craters, gullible-ly following along with what they say. I like a man who takes care of his family, but I guess I go into overkill and end up landing the Momma's boys who cant say no as an answer. I thin I should just take a while off the dating scene and just work on me and my kids. God knows we need some me time. I'm not saying all men suck, just the ones I am apparently attracted to. To any men who might be reading this here's some advice: if you promise a girl you will take care of them DO IT, if you dont like kids dont date one with kids just to get a fuck. and if you really love someone don't let your momma kick them out because she doesn't like it. That is bullshit. Especially when they have kids. asshole.

Scared

I admit to being scared. I admit life is dirty and hard and the unknown of it all terrifies the shit out of me. I know I have to be a"big girl" now and take my life into my own hands. I was stupid and young and made a not so good choice in letting myself and my life be dictated by my husband. i never grew up and had to push back at the word and get jobs and lose them and see that there's no shame in that. I never got an education and struggled through school to fight and be proud of myself and my achievements. I worked at being a mother and a housewife and yes that is a job, but not one you can put on paper, and it doesn't build your resume. So now I am scared. I HAVE to fight. I HAVE to succeed. Or my whole world comes crumbling down. What are you scared of?