Therapeudic, yes?

So wow that first blog post was a doozy. I can say I am much happier now that in the first month or so that I left. Granted I had a job then which was much better than NOT having one like now. But I do have someone who loves me and a house that is not my own but I pay rent for. Better than living off friends' couches and frozen taquidoes. The hardest part for me about divorce isn't the jobgetting. Though that sucks emmensely since there are few jobs and I have 0 skills other than childrearing and housewifery, but the letting go of responsibility for my child when she's with her father. The anxiety over is she eating properly, going to bed on time, seeing things she shouldn't at her age or getting the attention she needs. Up until now I have been ultimatly responsible for all of these things, therefore knowing what goes into her mouth and mind. Now I have to let go and hope that she's ok when she's out of my sight. Part of it is the maternal thing, but mostly it is I admit, a control issue. I like to be able to plan and know what's going on with my family and life so to plan for all possibilities I can. It's something I've had to work on all my adult life, this control anxiety. I hate not knowing whats going to happen. I fear the unknown.